Woke up at 5 am with just a little amount of sleep yesterday. I didn’t mind since I was too excited for our recollection which will be held in a Carmelite retreat house. We’ve been classmates for 3 years, now that we’ve already graduated and will be taking the board exams, we feel like having a recollection to be united with each other and with God is the best thing to do.
The place was really beautiful. It’s peaceful and it really was a great place to be in connection with God. We stayed the night here and slept in those little but cozy houses.
We’ve done a lot of activities during our stay here. I have some share of happiness and tears. We have to share our pains to a group and I admitted I cried even before saying what I have to say. Remembering the pains I had before and some until now hurts more than it actually is. I can’t believe I’m saying this but I gained a lot of confidence and acceptance in this day. I felt relieved that my class finally knows why I’m like this, quiet, strange, flawed. I actually acted in front of the whole class and sang and it didn’t made me scary at all. It made me feel alive.
Night time came and we sat under the starry sky. We have to say something to each other whether bad or good. My turn came and it was so overwhelming what they said to me. I only have few close friends here yet all of them said that if others would really know me, they might meet the most amazing person. I cried again because of happiness this time. Being rejected in grade school and high school, I never felt I could hear this words from other people. One said she didn’t know until now that I’m actually funny and fun to talk to. At last I got out of my shell, hopefully this will last forever but it feels great to being true to yourself without the fear of judgement. And oh yeah, I saw a falling star while we were outside. I was so fascinated that I forgot to make a wish. But we did made a letter to God and we burned it.
Woke up early in the morning the next day and this huge fog greeted me. It was my first time seeing this huge cloud of fog. It’s so sad but we have to go home plus I wasn’t really feeling well.
I’ll treasure this moment with me forever. More power section C! May we all have a successful and happy life. 🙂