This is the only place where I can be comfortable. My room is my personal space, my safe haven, my comfort zone. It may not be a lot and it may look like a little girl’s room but I’m contented with it.
I’m the kind of girl who seeks silence and wants to be alone most of the time. Sure I love company once in awhile but I need my alone time more. If someone invades my personal bubble longer than I expected it would, I would get so uneasy and just concentrate with the noises they’re making, their conversations, my blanket being tugged, my pillow being taken away, even the sound of food wrapper that I kept in my bedside table. And then I noticed other little things that makes me even mad.
No matter how pissed I am though, I just kept it to myself and hoping I would go back to sleep with all those noises in my room when I’m not alone. Tears starts falling cos I want my personal space back after 2 weeks of having 2 roommates and I don’t even know how to tell them without hurting their feelings. I feel like if I should, I’m gonna be the bad guy.
I gave my cousin permission to stay here even though he has his own room. I thought it’s gonna be for a night but one night turned to days, then to weeks and stayed here even at daytime. Then I invited my other cousin who’s been staying downstairs to have a slumber party. One night turned to days too. She’s the one who often consumes my food, mostly when I’m already asleep. It keeps bugging me all the time I feel like I have no privacy in my own room anymore. Whenever I lock it, someone would knock the door and won’t stop until I open it.
Today I woke up a really bad mood. I only speak a little but then suddenly I had the courage to tell my cousin that I want to sleep alone. He said it’s okay. A huge sigh of relief came into me but still a little bit worried if I hurt his feelings. I don’t know how to tell my other cousin though. She’s tough to deal with. I just want my personal space and privacy back.
We all need to be alone sometimes. At least I do.