I woke up with a realization that it will be Christmas day tomorrow and tonight would be Christmas eve. Where did time go? I don’t know why I feel like it’s not Christmas. Maybe because the house is almost empty. All my cousins who live here has work, my aunt is on vacation, my dad is working overseas. So there’s just me, my mom and my younger brother. I actually couldn’t believe that my most awaited day of the year is coming. I was looking forward to it and now that it’s gonna be so soon, it makes me sad knowing my expectations will not come as close as the reality.
I guess time really changes everything. People come and go, new experiences, and it’s not the same as it used to be anymore. But since this my favorite day ever, I won’t let this feeling get me. I went outside and felt the cool breeze on my face and blowing on my hair. Well at least it’s cold, Christmas is supposed to be cold. I guess it’s something but it wasn’t enough because I found myself browsing on my Spotify and played Christmas songs. I also browsed Netflix to see if there’s a good Christmas movie to watch. I just needed to feel the Christmas spirit again.
As I was about to watch Love Actually for the nth time, I found my brother on his laptop working on something and my mom cooking dinner. Why am I feeling so sad when I have my family here in front of me? Why do I have to search for something to make it feel like it really is Christmas? If I couldn’t feel it, why not do something to make this day really special? So I set aside my laptop, talked to my brother for a bit cos I haven’t really talked to him cos he’s usually away for uni, and I helped my mom cook and prepare dinner. Now that I really think about it, Christmas might not be the same but it can still be a special day. Just being with my family is more than enough.